Married, Approaching 30, Childless and Content

I scrolled past this on one of my Pinterest boards this morning and thought it was worth reposting.

If you’re dealing with something similar or praying through a season of infertility or loss, please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers πŸ’—πŸ’œπŸ™

I was about to be 30 when my initial post was shared, now I’m approaching 32 and not much has changed.

However; I do realize that these years have granted me the benefit of WISDOM gained.

I can be CONTENT in my situation, but that does not mean that I am COMPLACENT.

I can be grateful for my marriage and the union that we continue to build while also working to develop myself as an individual and wife who will (I believe) one day become a mother.

I’ve been a bit more quiet during the last half of this year.

Intentionality.

Earlier, I mentioned that 2017 would be the year I, “unplugged” and I became more committed to that personal vow as the year went on.

I have been working on personal goals and taking better care of myself.

Despite having had a few health challenges, I am feeling better now and looking forward to several things and living my BEST life.

I think Drake said it best,

I’ll be back 2018 to give you the summary….MORE LIFE”

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Fix-It With Fran

I love kids. Especially young kids (toddlers), but I don’t want ANY….right now.

Still, I have STRUGGLED with this.

Partner that with the conversation I experience almost daily: β€œAre you married? (Yes). Do you have kids (No). ****Insert confused/shocked/lost puppy/blank stare here****

I know I’m not the first to experience this and I understand that most people don’t mean any harm when asking those questions; However, it’s been on my heart to have a conversation (blog) about this topic. It is so frustrating/challenging and sometimes just downright draining to deal with this as frequently as I do.

Then came the guilt. Thoughts like:

Am I being selfish?

SHOULD we have kids now?

I know there are many young, married couples that are praying for children, but right now that’s not my prayer.– Does that make me a bad person?

Maybe it’s another character building exercise God is walking me through…

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